Woah. What. Suicide.
I write about a lot of controversial issues. It’s sorta my thing , i’ve kinda led a controversial life.
So here goes another one.
I attempted suicide in 2013. In April to be more specific.
Simply things were happening in my life that i could not deal with, my body couldn’t hold the emotions that were going on inside. My mental capacity had been stretched far outside possible limitations and i took the only way i knew out.
It’s technically my second attempt at this sorta thing one when i was 15 and not a Christian, one when i was 20 and a Christian.
and now i’m somewhere in between.
2013 was really really hard.
Hardest year of my life.
This year I :
- Fell in Love, and then … slowly but very surely healed from heart break
- Lost a very important Friend, to life circumstances and selfishness.
- Left the only place i could ever call home: Brantford
- Dropped out of an Institution i was holding on to tell me what i believe and what my dreams are.
It’s just been very hard. And of course things are only hard because happiness was before it. So it’s not all bad, but there was just a lot of … losing this year.
2014 , now it could be a fresh start , a new beginning or it could just be the year where i take a break… essentially i am pressing Pause.. Where i just figure things out. I don’t believe i’ll be returning to school or church for the rest of the year, yes many of you are disappointed in me, i get that, and thats okay i’m not obligated to hold a reputation for you.
Life is a long run and i can’t keep running on terrain that i hate.
2014 wil be good for me, as 2013 was.. lessons learned.
2014 will be good too.
On that note because I’m on “pause” i’m shutting down the blog other then life updates.
Thank you for taking the time to read it amongst the mass amounts of better blogs that are out there.
You are Loved.