The Kindness of Strangers

 

Today i was hanging out in Whistler Public Library scrolling through a book called The Kindness of Strangers  I really can’t say much about the book because i read the preface and a page of a story and went on my computer. However it seemed to have a link to my life lately.

It may have seemed over the last few months that i dropped off the face of the planet in terms of writing, faith, and friendships. I could simply say i’m… adjusting, but really i don’t have an absolute clue.

What does this have to do with the Kindness of Strangers? well, i’ve been doubtful of God lately, not his existence ( I get to see epic views of his creation everyday) but of his involvement, if he has a plan and what his plan is. Today the Kindness of two strangers led me to buy a bible ( I purposely left mine in Ontario) , a journal, a layman’s book of philosophy and back to seeking answers. Here’s the story:

There is an incredible women named Grace Cabral, who is the mother of an incredible man named Josh Cabral. Josh goes to the bible college I dropped out of. One day Grace was driving on the highway and decided to pick up an German hitch hiker named Micheal. Grace was a stranger that was kind to Micheal.

Now months later I’m in Whistler and Micheal is Whistler and through faith, or coincidence I’m renting a room for two weeks from the guy.  At the end of our meet and greet i mention payment of the room to him and he simply mentions Grace and her act of kindness and how i can stay in the room for free!… The Kindness of a Stranger .

I spent the summer at Freedom House who was huge into kindness, and it being an act of love, leading to God. I mean I’m still not sure at this point about anything.

But all i know today, is that the Kindness of one stranger, led to another stranger, led to me no longer being complacent about faith and bigger things.

I’m not saying i’ve got it all figured out, I’m not saying I’m not a christian anymore. I believe, i just don’t know how the belief is playing out in my day to day life and choices.

So there it is, I’m also back to writing , committing to doing a once a week article. It’s important to pursue passions, even in seasons you don’t feel like  it.

Be Kind my friends, you never know what will come out of it.

BIG sad but AWESOME News:) – Life Update Post.

So now i have some news.

We all have plans right. If you would of asked me 4 months ago what my plan was it would’ve been .. finishing my Bachelors Degree and getting a job.

That planned changed when I let you all know I was leaving school. Alright alright you guys know this crap already .. so whats the big news?

I was suppose to come back to Ontario in April when this job ran its course. I mean why wouldn’t i have tons of family and friends there and virtually none of those here. 

but just like everyone else that comes out here ….

they stay here. Because it is infact so freaking awesome.

and i’m staying. At least for another year. I got the phone call today about another Nanny position i applied for in Whistler, BC that i had been offered the job. It’s a year commitment. Which means i am in Whistler until at least April 2015 ( when i was suppose to graduate :/ ) and probably after.

I didn’t come out here to find myself. Not at all.. i came out here for change, for adventure, for something different, and though i  am finding all of those things, i learn something new about myself all the time. How i crave nature, how i love to watch kids grow, how maybe God is much much different then i thought he was. British Columbia is an important part of my journey, i wish i would of come out here sooner. 

So thats my news friends, as much as my heart almost explodes daily missing loved ones it’s also at peace knowing I am exactly where I am suppose to be.

Other fun notes:

- snowboarding is going okay .. it is in fact hard to learn :) 

- my job is awesome, being a nanny is incredibly rewarding, stressful, exhausting and exhilarating and my boss is fantastic. ( and if any one wants to come work for her next winter she’s already looking :) 

Stay Awesome Friends.

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2013 and 2014 and the Suicide in Between (The Last Post)

Woah. What. Suicide.

I write about a lot of controversial issues. It’s sorta my thing , i’ve kinda led a controversial life.

So here goes another one.

I attempted suicide in 2013. In April to be more specific. 

Why? 

Simply things were happening in my life that i could not deal with, my body couldn’t hold the emotions that were going on inside. My mental capacity had been stretched far outside possible limitations and i took the only way i knew out.

It’s technically my second attempt at this sorta thing one when i was 15 and not a Christian, one when i was 20 and a Christian.

and now i’m somewhere in between.

2013 was really really hard.

Hardest year of my life.

This year I :

- Fell in Love, and then … slowly but very surely healed from heart break

- Lost a very important Friend, to life circumstances and selfishness.

- Left the only place i could ever call home: Brantford

- Dropped out of an Institution i was holding on to tell me what i believe and what my dreams are.

 

It’s just been very hard. And of course things are only hard because happiness was before it. So it’s not all bad, but there was just a lot of … losing this year.

2014 , now it could be a fresh start , a new beginning or it could just be the year where i take a break… essentially i am pressing Pause.. Where i just figure things out. I don’t believe i’ll be returning to school or church for the rest of the year, yes many of you are disappointed in me, i get that, and thats okay i’m not obligated to hold a reputation for you. 

Life is a long run and i can’t keep running on terrain that i hate.

2014 wil be good for me, as 2013 was.. lessons learned.

2014 will be good too.

On that note because I’m on “pause” i’m shutting down the blog other then life updates. 

Thank you for taking the time to read it amongst the mass amounts of better blogs that are out there.

You are Loved.

- Michelle